This picture is one of my favorite pictures of us together. And I feel like the day this was taken was one of the last days that I feel that our relationship was just so strong.
I want to believe that we still are strong. I want to believe that you still love me, and I still love you. I want to believe that it’s still going to be us forever. I want to believe that we’re going to hold on to this. I want to believe… but right now, I just can’t.
All these trust issues are already getting into my nerves. Sometimes, I just really don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes, I feel like I’m alone in this relationship. I want to be happy. And to be happy, I just wanna love you. I just want to be with you. But, I feel like you just keep on pushing me away. I feel like you’re getting too tired of me already.
I just need you to understand me. I just need you to know that I’m still hurt from what happened to us few weeks ago. Thinking about her still breaks me. I keep on trying to get that out of my mind, but I just can’t.
Yes, it was my fault that I trusted you too much. It was my fault to give you everything even though I know for a fact that at one point in time, you’re just gonna throw all those away. It was my fault that I love you too much.
I want to hold on to this. I want to save this because I know that we still deserve each other. But, just please, help me. Don’t leave me alone. I need you, and I love you.