This picture is one of my favorite pictures of us together. And I feel like the day this was taken was one of the last days that I feel that our relationship was just so strong.
I want to believe that we still are strong. I want to believe that you still love me, and I still love you. I want to believe that it’s still going to be us forever. I want to believe that we’re going to hold on to this. I want to believe… but right now, I just can’t.
All these trust issues are already getting into my nerves. Sometimes, I just really don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes, I feel like I’m alone in this relationship. I want to be happy. And to be happy, I just wanna love you. I just want to be with you. But, I feel like you just keep on pushing me away. I feel like you’re getting too tired of me already.
I just need you to understand me. I just need you to know that I’m still hurt from what happened to us few weeks ago. Thinking about her still breaks me. I keep on trying to get that out of my mind, but I just can’t.
Yes, it was my fault that I trusted you too much. It was my fault to give you everything even though I know for a fact that at one point in time, you’re just gonna throw all those away. It was my fault that I love you too much.
I want to hold on to this. I want to save this because I know that we still deserve each other. But, just please, help me. Don’t leave me alone. I need you, and I love you.
But, I’m actually posting this for a late update. Yieee!! First month last Nov. 8! I actually have pictures from that day. But, I’m too lazy to upload. HEHE. :)) Anyway! One month and still strong. Heh. Stronger than ever, actually. :”> I’m sure that I’m not going to give this up anymore. No. Never. :) And I know, and I’m also sure, that he also won’t. There are hardships every now and then. Hindi naman maiiwasan ‘yon. Hindi naman maiiwasan ang mga tampuhan, away, selosan, at kung ano-ano pa. Thing is that every time we experience those, we don’t quit on handling the situation properly and calmly. I like how we work things. Peacefully and through communication. :”>
I could never give up a guy like you. Cheesy to say, but you are my life now. And I’ll never be ashamed to say that to everyone else. Even to my dad, my mom, to my whole family. LEGAL NA TAYO. :) And, I’m so happy! :”> Huweeeee!!!
I could not ask for more than the love you give me, ‘cause it’s all I’m waiting for. And, I could not ask for more. - Edwin McCain <3
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT SCARES ME. I’ve NEVER FELT THIS WAY WITH ANYONE ELSE. AN HOUR AFTER WE ARE APART i STILL FEEL YOUR KISSES. I STILL FEEL YOUR ARMS AROUND MY WAIST AND YOUR FINGERS INTWINED IN MINE. IT SCARES ME TO THINK THAT MAYBE WE WONT BE TOGETHER FOREVER. i LAY AT NIGHT WISHING YOU WERE NEXT TO ME. I MISS YOU DAMN MUCH…
Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.
My exact feeling at this very moment. It just had been 3 hours since we last saw each other. Spent the past two days with my friends and with him. Slept during the night with him. The thought of we’re not going to see each other for days after spending so much time together the past weeks just breaks me. But, I can do this! We can do this! Next week Wednesday will be our day, hopefully. Whoohoo!
DejevuKol’s Prod. Party. It was a blast! I had so much fun! I was with him the whole party from start to finish. I couldn’t ask for anything else. Those days were to remember for life.
Even if we had couple of misunderstandings on our way to the venue and on the way home because of some things, we were able to pass through all those and become stronger than anything else.
I love him and that’s it. I need not to be scared and nervous of anything that would happen because he’s there to protect me and love me. If anything will fail, I know he’ll be there by my side and will love me always.
And also, thank you. Thank you for bringing me to your home at Laguna. Thank you for making me feel at home and meet your family. I might not able to let them see the real me yet but I know there’ll come a time when we’re going to all enjoy each other’s company.
You are the only exception. The Only Exception : Paramore
The guy I am with in this picture never failed to make me smile. He never failed to make my day. He never failed to show me how much he loves and cares about me.
Last night, I attended a meeting with my fellow execomm officers and we started it late. 9PM, he dropped me by at McDo and instead of going back to his unit at the University Tower, he insisted to wait for me. Ihahatid niya kasi ako pagkatapos ng meeting. At the middle of the meeting, I remembered that there were things that he still needs to do and that he also has morning classes. Feeling very guilty, I decided to tell him that he could go home already. BAD MOVE. And an argument quickly started between the both of us.
I thought I was going to cry already. He got really pissed. And I was very sorry. He was right, I should’ve told him to go home sooner rather than making him wait for a couple of hours then I’d just tell him to go home na lang. I was wrong. But, I was just really concerned about the things he still had to do. Hah! At the end of the day, he still accompanied me. He brought me home safe and sound. Even if he got home very late na, past midnight, he didn’t care about it.
I don’t know but I can really feel that all these are true already, that I don’t need to hesitate and be scared anymore, that I just need to trust in him and myself. I’m starting to believe that what we are experiencing now is already love. :)